So, I am really bad at keeping up with this. I know. I am excellent at telling everyone about my day on Facebook. Twitter and MySpace, not so much. I just can not really figure out Twitter. With all the # signs before everything. And the retweets. Etc. 


I am now working in a boot factory. It is sort of boring. Can be difficult at times for me to do my job properly if the parts at the beginning of the line are not sewn together and lined up right. But it is a job. And its full time. And I can get benefits.


I took the little man to the zoo for the first time on Friday. He was so excited all week to see the monkeys. We rode a camel. After which my sister decided to call me Camel Toe the rest of the day. We touched a Sting Ray, which freaked Cooper out. We saw a million different kinds of monkeys, it seemed. We saw the penguins, the cutest little otter ever, and a Chimp that got up and danced. However, this was the saddest zoo. No Alligators. The petting farm consisted of 3 pigs, 3 goats, and 4 chickens.  Half of the exhibits were empty. A lot of animals were in the wrong places, due to habitats needing repairs. It made it sort of hard to find things. Oh and the whole place stunk really bad. I mean I know animals stink, but I dont think I have ever been to a zoo that has stunk that badly. I mean some places I just wanted to throw up!


Saturday, my wonderful (cough cough) husband decided to go fishing, yet again. I told him that maybe Cooper and I would like to go, we could follow him and his friend so that when Cooper was ready to go, we could leave and they could stay.... Well, they left without us, while we were getting dressed. He said he didnt know when hed be back and see ya later. And I said, "Yeah well like me and Cooper are going to sit around and wait for you all day."  I took Cooper to the store and bought a child fishing pole, worms, and hooks. We drove to where those buttheads went fishing and sat down right next to them.  Cooper was happy to be there. My husband was not happy that we showed up. But I didnt care. The boy just wanted to go fishing with his daddy. I tried to call my brother to go fishing with him instead, at a lake, so Cooper could catch some blue gills, but he had to work and Cooper kept saying "No fish with Tyler. I want to fish with Daddy."  Despite Rusty's bad mood about us showing up, we did have an okay time. Travis let Cooper help him reel in a fish, then told him to touch it and take a picture, but Cooper was scared and ran to me screaming. He did the same thing with the worms. The kid was perfectly content with nothing on his line but a bobber, he dropped it down into the river, let it float, then reeled it in, grabbed it, and said "Got a fish." He also informed me that it was green.  Once he got whiney and didnt want to listen, I decided to bring him home. We left, after I fought with him for twenty minutes to get in the car.


I guess that is all I have to report. I have not had time for a lot. Just working and trying to clean my house, which by the way is a mess right now. I did have it all cleaned last nite, but then I made dinner. My husband never washed his pots and pans from previous days. And Cooper tried to empty his potty this morning and spilled his pee all over my bathroom. I cleaned that up. Of course. He did it while his dad was playing video games and I was trying to sleep in. Rusty informed me he did it, but made no attempt to clean it up. Lovely. Just what I want to do before I can pee in the morning, is have to run around the house finding things to clean the bathroom floor with. Never mind the fact I might pee my pants, as long as he got to play his video game. This PS3 is going to go through the HDTV and that will be the end of it. One of these days. Or maybe while he is sleeping I will just take the power cords, games, remotes. So all thats sitting there is the unit. Completely useless.

It's Been A While

Its been a long time since I wrote on here! Wow!

So here's what been going on.  I went back to work. I enrolled in college for the fall.

I think its about time I went back to school. So I can find a higher paying job, one that you know everyone from your parents to your teachers always talked about.

The cost of living just got higher, and wages don't keep up with it. So I guess that by finding a "higher paying job" it will really be like I'm making what I am now or something like that... Maybe like the cost of living isn't killing me.

Cooper is being so good lately! I can't believe how much he has changed!  Rusty was laid off for a month and Cooper even listens to me now!

In other news, things have not really been that wonderful lately.

Family life is fine. Its all the stress and anxiety I feel over everything else. From my so called friends, to my job, to Rusty's job, to buying groceries.

I can tell you one thing, life would be a lot easier if I could just relax!

So Sorry

So Sorry. Where do I begin? Yes, it was childish of me to put such a horrible thing as my Facebook status today. But may I also point out that I deleted it almost as soon as I wrote it. Also, that it was just as childish for whoever to call you and tell you about it.  I do not need babysitters. I would very much like to delete my whole family off of Facebook if this is going to continue to happen. I thought I already deleted the babysitters. But evidently, someone decided they needed to take their place. No surprise there. I really think that our family is dysfunctional. Since nobody seems to be happy unless they are causing problems and drama for somebody else.

Well, readers, if you still even follow me, that apology is for my mom. I believe I over-reacted to a situation. That is apparently just between her and me and my husband.

Onto other news.

I finally got my new couch. Yep, I have been dreaming about it for 3 years. Guess what, they really don't make the style I dreamt about anymore. I looked at 3000 couches at various furniture stores and they did not have exactly what I wanted. But I am happy with the one I picked.

The puppy replacement plan is working well. Cooper does not ask where that witch Belle is anymore. Now he looks for Lillie. And usually finds her. Under my bed. Hiding from him. Haha.

She is also coming along with her training. She knows her name and come here and sit. She is getting better with potty training everyday. She comes to me and cries or goes to the door and cries when she wants out. It is nice.

I have decided that I would like a new car. However, I probably have to sell a kidney to buy one. Anybody need a kidney? My blood type is B Negative.  I'm not sure what all they match it up to other than that... But there it is.

I am excited to return to work! We have one meeting this week and then open next week! So exciting! Maybe I will be able to put some of that money towards that new car.

Rusty's truck pretty much died two weeks ago. So we are down to one vehicle temporarily. After spending $700 on new parts and it still not funtioning properly, he finally decided to take it in.  Thank God. I can't even imagine how much more we would end up spending if he didn't.  I guess the funny part is that everytime he went to fix one thing, something else broke, in addition to the original major problem never getting fixed. I swear, he only buys the ones that are bound and determined to have NEW everything put in them.

I am still trying to learn to sew. I hemmed two pairs of pants. And although they aren't perfect, they will work. I think better if I invest in an iron.  I also have been trying to sew purses and tote bags. Those turn out much better than my pants hemming. Even though I have no idea what I'm doing there either and never use a pattern or directions.

Cooper has learned a lot these last few weeks. He sings Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, counts to ten almost all the way by himself, says his ABC's to E.  Also, I finally found a discipline that works for him, even though I've been informed its mean.  I threaten to throw all his toys away. The best one to threaten him with, is his new Remote Controlled Truck.  I don't even have to put it in the trash can, just set it on top of the lid or start playing with it and tell him its mine until he... does whatever it is I am trying to get him to do.

I finally got all the laundry done, sorted, folded, and put away properly so that only the clothes that fit Cooper are in his dresser. And that all of mine and Rusty's clothes are not mixed together in whatever basket I brought them up in, being dug through to find things and falling all over the floor.  I am hoping that Rusty will keep with this system of organization so that things are easier on me when I go back to work next week.

I guess that is all for now.

Time Marches On

I have been very bored.  With the exception of girls night last Saturday.  It was fun and much needed.  My husband was not too thrilled when I got home 4 hours after I said I would, but oh well.  When he goes out he stays out way later than I did on Saturnday night.

Trying to keep the house in its current state of cleanliness has been a challenge.  I painted Cooper's room for two reasons.  I was bored. And I didnt want to do the dishes right then.  Plus it desperately needed to be done.  I guess that was 3 reasons.

I can't believe how fast this month has seemed to fly by.  As bored as I have been.  I thought time only flies when you are having fun.   I have not been having fun.  Cooper's behavior is getting worse.  I'm at my wit's end of what to do to correct him.  He hits me, throws toys at me, throws a temper tantrum constantly, ignores me when I tell him no.  I just don't know what to do anymore.  Time outs do not work.  Nothing works.  Which means that I can not wait to go back to work.  Then Rusty can deal with him.  Some days I just want to lock myself in my room and never come out.  But the door's broken and no longer even shuts the right way.  The only peace I find is locking myself in the bathroom and taking a shower even though I've already taken one.  I must be the cleanest person I know now, but that is even not peaceful.  He stands at the door banging on it and screaming.  The water's not loud enough to muffle the sound.

I know I'm not the only parent to feel this way.  But I feel guilty for having these feelings anyways.

Last night Cooper was so bad!  I just wanted to take him and beat him, but then he would've screamed and cried more.  It didnt help that his dad was back in video game land and wouldn't come help.  Some days I'd like to take my  husband and beat the crap out of him.

I know that being a mother is a 24/7 job, but would it kill the man to give me a half hour break?  Take the kid outside to play, or to his room and play with him.  Something.  So I can have a minute to myself. 

I love my son.  But sometimes, I need time for myself.  And waiting every 3 months for girls night to roll around is not cutting it.  Rusty needs to get his ass off the couch and do something with this kid.  Cooper is bored and wants attention.  He wants someone to play with him.  And he does ask Rusty.  I try, but he gets mad because I dont play with the cars right or whatever and goes back to asking his daddy.  And his daddy is too busy with video games and rc trucks and watching tv and eating.  Its frustrating.

Ive tried to talk to Rusty.  He doesnt listen.  So I guess I just needed to get that out.  Thanks for listening.

Yay for a New Puppy and a Clean House!

Heres the thing. Rusty gave Belle away almost a month ago because I was sick and tired of that two year old dog doing whatever she wanted to.  She was trained better than that.  But all of a sudden, she would not stay in the yard, and would be gone all day.  Come home in the middle of the night and jump on the door.  Then she decided to just keep going to the bathroom in the house as she felt like it.  And when Cooper pulled on her tail like hes done since he was a baby and she was a puppy, she started to growl and turn her head at him.. She never bit him, but I wasn't going to wait for all that to happen.  I told Rusty I could not put up with it anymore.  I tried to do everything I could for her in regards to her allergies and other medical expenses, I made sure she had food and plenty of it, and yet she still had the nerve to run off, growl at my son and shit in my house.  So he took her and gave her away.

Rusty and I went and bought a new vacuum and steam cleaner to celebrate.  We celebrated by getting all the stains that witch left behind out of the carpet and the smell of her out of the house!!! My house is for the first time in a year and a half, so clean, that you could eat off the floors if you wanted to!  I couldnt say that before because as much as I cleaned, it was always still a mess!  But now, it is clean.  It has been clean for 5 days straight.  And Ive been keeping up on it to make sure it lasts.  My New Years Resolution, I suppose.  Since I never made one.

Well, Cooper needs a dog he can actually play with as Thunder tolerates him but doesnt like it.  And does not play.  Ive never seen a dog that won't touch toys before I got this one.  I swear.  So today, as you may have guessed from the title, we got a new puppy.  Cooper helped pick her out and has been waiting for her to come home with us for two weeks.  her name is Lillie and she is adorable and wants to play!

I have been so happy all this week!  This is a nice change from the depression I normally feel because the house is trashed and just gets worse the more I try to clean and because Im cooped up all the time and my wonderful boy doesnt usually behave.  But Cooper has been on good behavior, the house is clean, and we have a new puppy! 

Soon we will have a new couch.  Real grown-up furniture.  And even though our furnace decided to quit working, Im not even upset about it.  Because we dont heat with that anyways.  We were going to start after this last electric bill, but oh well.  Now we have an excuse to go get that pellet stove to put in the basement.  Which Rusty has been talking about for two years!

Life is good.

Things I have learned that nobody wants to listen to along with other ramblings.

Here we are, eleven days into the new year.  My two year old has already managed to sprain his ankle.  Rusty's grandma's condition is improving with baby steps.  My nose is still runny and stuffy.  And my vehicle decided to get a flat.  Rusty decided that instead of going and getting new tires, to just put on the mudders.  Fine whatever. Except one of those is flat too from sitting for months. Lovely.  I suppose he has it almost fixed by now.

The house is a mess.  Of course.  Seems like everytime I make a little headway, it gets worse than it was before. What I wouldnt give for some help with this mess.  I swear I would give a kidney or something.

Now onto the things I have learned.

I have learned that you can not just move in with your friend for a while... I learned this in my younger days.  Things might be dandy if you were roomies in college or whatever, however, after a while things start to really suck.  The money fights begin.  And when you decide to move out, its too late and the friendship is almost always ruined.

Now, I have tried to get this point across to a few family members.  They don't want to listen to me.  But they are slowly finding out that I am right.  I guess its just something they had to learn on their own, but if they would have listened to me in the first place, they would still have their friend.

Also, people will always talk about you as long as you react to it.  When you stop caring what they say and think and what rumors they are spreading, they will move on.  I know that this is hard to do.  Ignoring them.  But if you do, eventually they wont have anything to say.  I have found this first hand.  Experience pays.  And if they dont stop after you start ignoring it, its probably because they have nothing better to do and are unhappy with their own lives so they have to try to ruin other peoples' too.

I guess that is all for now.