Time Marches On

I have been very bored.  With the exception of girls night last Saturday.  It was fun and much needed.  My husband was not too thrilled when I got home 4 hours after I said I would, but oh well.  When he goes out he stays out way later than I did on Saturnday night.

Trying to keep the house in its current state of cleanliness has been a challenge.  I painted Cooper's room for two reasons.  I was bored. And I didnt want to do the dishes right then.  Plus it desperately needed to be done.  I guess that was 3 reasons.

I can't believe how fast this month has seemed to fly by.  As bored as I have been.  I thought time only flies when you are having fun.   I have not been having fun.  Cooper's behavior is getting worse.  I'm at my wit's end of what to do to correct him.  He hits me, throws toys at me, throws a temper tantrum constantly, ignores me when I tell him no.  I just don't know what to do anymore.  Time outs do not work.  Nothing works.  Which means that I can not wait to go back to work.  Then Rusty can deal with him.  Some days I just want to lock myself in my room and never come out.  But the door's broken and no longer even shuts the right way.  The only peace I find is locking myself in the bathroom and taking a shower even though I've already taken one.  I must be the cleanest person I know now, but that is even not peaceful.  He stands at the door banging on it and screaming.  The water's not loud enough to muffle the sound.

I know I'm not the only parent to feel this way.  But I feel guilty for having these feelings anyways.

Last night Cooper was so bad!  I just wanted to take him and beat him, but then he would've screamed and cried more.  It didnt help that his dad was back in video game land and wouldn't come help.  Some days I'd like to take my  husband and beat the crap out of him.

I know that being a mother is a 24/7 job, but would it kill the man to give me a half hour break?  Take the kid outside to play, or to his room and play with him.  Something.  So I can have a minute to myself. 

I love my son.  But sometimes, I need time for myself.  And waiting every 3 months for girls night to roll around is not cutting it.  Rusty needs to get his ass off the couch and do something with this kid.  Cooper is bored and wants attention.  He wants someone to play with him.  And he does ask Rusty.  I try, but he gets mad because I dont play with the cars right or whatever and goes back to asking his daddy.  And his daddy is too busy with video games and rc trucks and watching tv and eating.  Its frustrating.

Ive tried to talk to Rusty.  He doesnt listen.  So I guess I just needed to get that out.  Thanks for listening.

Yay for a New Puppy and a Clean House!

Heres the thing. Rusty gave Belle away almost a month ago because I was sick and tired of that two year old dog doing whatever she wanted to.  She was trained better than that.  But all of a sudden, she would not stay in the yard, and would be gone all day.  Come home in the middle of the night and jump on the door.  Then she decided to just keep going to the bathroom in the house as she felt like it.  And when Cooper pulled on her tail like hes done since he was a baby and she was a puppy, she started to growl and turn her head at him.. She never bit him, but I wasn't going to wait for all that to happen.  I told Rusty I could not put up with it anymore.  I tried to do everything I could for her in regards to her allergies and other medical expenses, I made sure she had food and plenty of it, and yet she still had the nerve to run off, growl at my son and shit in my house.  So he took her and gave her away.

Rusty and I went and bought a new vacuum and steam cleaner to celebrate.  We celebrated by getting all the stains that witch left behind out of the carpet and the smell of her out of the house!!! My house is for the first time in a year and a half, so clean, that you could eat off the floors if you wanted to!  I couldnt say that before because as much as I cleaned, it was always still a mess!  But now, it is clean.  It has been clean for 5 days straight.  And Ive been keeping up on it to make sure it lasts.  My New Years Resolution, I suppose.  Since I never made one.

Well, Cooper needs a dog he can actually play with as Thunder tolerates him but doesnt like it.  And does not play.  Ive never seen a dog that won't touch toys before I got this one.  I swear.  So today, as you may have guessed from the title, we got a new puppy.  Cooper helped pick her out and has been waiting for her to come home with us for two weeks.  her name is Lillie and she is adorable and wants to play!

I have been so happy all this week!  This is a nice change from the depression I normally feel because the house is trashed and just gets worse the more I try to clean and because Im cooped up all the time and my wonderful boy doesnt usually behave.  But Cooper has been on good behavior, the house is clean, and we have a new puppy! 

Soon we will have a new couch.  Real grown-up furniture.  And even though our furnace decided to quit working, Im not even upset about it.  Because we dont heat with that anyways.  We were going to start after this last electric bill, but oh well.  Now we have an excuse to go get that pellet stove to put in the basement.  Which Rusty has been talking about for two years!

Life is good.

Things I have learned that nobody wants to listen to along with other ramblings.

Here we are, eleven days into the new year.  My two year old has already managed to sprain his ankle.  Rusty's grandma's condition is improving with baby steps.  My nose is still runny and stuffy.  And my vehicle decided to get a flat.  Rusty decided that instead of going and getting new tires, to just put on the mudders.  Fine whatever. Except one of those is flat too from sitting for months. Lovely.  I suppose he has it almost fixed by now.

The house is a mess.  Of course.  Seems like everytime I make a little headway, it gets worse than it was before. What I wouldnt give for some help with this mess.  I swear I would give a kidney or something.

Now onto the things I have learned.

I have learned that you can not just move in with your friend for a while... I learned this in my younger days.  Things might be dandy if you were roomies in college or whatever, however, after a while things start to really suck.  The money fights begin.  And when you decide to move out, its too late and the friendship is almost always ruined.

Now, I have tried to get this point across to a few family members.  They don't want to listen to me.  But they are slowly finding out that I am right.  I guess its just something they had to learn on their own, but if they would have listened to me in the first place, they would still have their friend.

Also, people will always talk about you as long as you react to it.  When you stop caring what they say and think and what rumors they are spreading, they will move on.  I know that this is hard to do.  Ignoring them.  But if you do, eventually they wont have anything to say.  I have found this first hand.  Experience pays.  And if they dont stop after you start ignoring it, its probably because they have nothing better to do and are unhappy with their own lives so they have to try to ruin other peoples' too.

I guess that is all for now.